I MISS YOU!!!

So, apparently the cool thing to do these says is to copy
and paste the most annoying conversation you've had
with SmarterChild lately. It's been a while since I've
posted so here we gooo...

Jonathan Gilde
you are dumb

SmarterChild
You like me, then you don't. Are all you humans like this?

Jonathan Gilde
no

SmarterChild
No? OK.

Jonathan Gilde
ok

SmarterChild
Okey doke.

Jonathan Gilde
okay

SmarterChild
Yeah.

Jonathan Gilde
yeah

SmarterChild
I hear you.

I'm a calculator too. Type (16*4)/7.4, for example.

Jonathan Gilde
(16*4)/7.4

SmarterChild
8.648649

Jonathan Gilde
dumb

SmarterChild
I'll get over it.
OK, should we get back to the kind of questions I was designed to answer? 

Jonathan Gilde
ok

SmarterChild
Indeed.

Jonathan Gilde
alright

SmarterChild
Alright.

Jonathan Gilde
sweet

SmarterChild
Fabulous!

Jonathan Gilde
awesome

SmarterChild
Right on.

Jonathan Gilde
great

SmarterChild
Fantastic.

Jonathan Gilde
fabulous

SmarterChild
Excellent. 

Jonathan Gilde
rad

SmarterChild
What?

Jonathan Gilde
rad

SmarterChild
I'm sorry, I don't know what you're saying.

Jonathan Gilde
i hate you

Jonathan Gilde
bye

SmarterChild
See ya later Kathy Archer. Good talking to you.

Current Location: beddd.
Current Mood: UNaccomplished
Current Music: Crooked Teeth-Death Cab

BOO-YAHHHHHHHH!!!


I totally owned those old people at Bingo. I walked out
with a hundred bucks in my butt pocket. And that...

is about the biggest highlight of spring break so far. I've
been feeling like home becomes less and less special each
time that I decide to come around. I miss the days where we'd
just do our random shizz. I miss the times of doing what all the
world would just call "nothing." I miss just seeing friends. Not even
Bingo at the wrinkly person home can fill in for old friends. Not quite.

Current Location: beddd.
Current Mood: accomplished
Current Music: Sweet Rose-Matt Costa

It's officially official.

Current Location: room.
Current Music: Sweet Tangerine-The Hush Sound

Life with one hand sucks.

I think that putting in contacts is the worst, closely
followed by eating, getting dressed and typing.

It's interesting to be back. I miss home, but I'm in
love with school already again. My welcome back
was awesome and I missed these people.

Right now the Wangmaster is snoring. I still am yet
to talk to him, even though I live with the guy.

And here's to a semester of better grades, some new
classes and old friends.

Current Location: beddd.
Current Mood: excited
Current Music: Walls-Emery

We didn't make it, but it was exciting to see another
group in the same place that I was. All the places in
this short clip are all the same places that I visited.
They're doing a lot of different stuff, but I'm glad to
see aid in that area. Kinda refreshing to know.





I thought it was pretty sweet stuff.

Current Music: "Walk Away"-Ben Harper

Well... it's been quite some time. I always want to update
about visiting Ami at UCLA or seeing Kelly when I go to
UCI or whatever, but I always die out. I feel like that's how
I do with a lot of things. My excitement levels peak quickly
and then fall even quicker.

Finals on Thursday. I just might die. Meh. It happens. I'm
home for today. Again. Been home since Friday. I feel like
I'm on break already. Nice, actually. Surfed this morning.
Good prep for Costa Rica. Speaking of, that's the very one
thing that I only get more and more excited about. I think
I'm ready for it. But this break will be... depressing at best.
In Costa Rica from the fourteenth to Christmas Eve, on a
Texas/Colorado/Vegas/everything in between road trip from
the twenty-sixth to the first and then in Pismo from then to
the sixth. I leave for school just a few days later. Ughhh.

Current Location: Covina.
Current Mood: weird
Current Music: "The Truth In Secrets"-Amaradio

An arbitrary slip of the tongue-"I like herbs."

"I like herbs too, Jonathan."

AWK! Crazy teacher... loving herbs... I meant it like herbal tea or something.
Her... her, on the other hand... POTHEAD!!!



And then it was off to Cal. The rally at Union Square was totally a highlight
of my life, as was the win on the road. I couldn't be more glad to go to USC.

Current Location: dorrrm.
Current Mood: cold
Current Music: Logan To Government-Brand New

I'm actually getting really tired of the Indian... and a lot of other people.

I could not agree more! I'm sick of nearly everyone!

I really really am. People and their stupid senses of humor and lack of depth and meaning.

I just can't seem to find people to connect with - or people who want to bother to know me.

Same here! Conversations are so shallow and no one seems to care about actual people, just school or whatever.

Does it make you rethink your choice to come here?

Not at all. I've seen people at other schools. It just makes me rethink who I talk to.

Is it any different? I just think maybe I made the wrong choice.

I think it IS different. I want to end some friendships, keep a few, and try out a new batch and then start all over again.

I feel like I'm trying too hard with some people and not hard enough with others. It's just a game I really don't want to play.

Ah! I was just gonna say the same! Weird! I think I try to be so good to everyone, but I really am to the people I don't like as much.

Do you ever feel like you want to be friends with someone more than they want to be friends with you?

All the time. And the people I DON'T want to, I am because the other people are too good.

Wait. That confused me.

I want to be friends with some people more than they want and we don't hang out because they're too good so I settle for the people I don't care for as much.

Yeah. Definitely agree. I'm glad I'm not the only one who feels that way.

You're not. Me too. And then that's it. No one else. Haha.

Yeah! There seems to be no one else who really gets it!

It really does feel that way. Like they are fine with shallow friendships. Ugh. I'm sure they all don't though.

Then why don't they say anything? I just hate wanting something no one else cares about.

They do, but not enough to go out an a limb. And not all of them do care. I just want to hit and yell... and sometimes I do. We need to from time to time.

So what do we do?

I really don't know. And such is life. Just when we think we have what we're looking for... it escapes.

You don't always find what you're looking for. But it always finds you.

Does it? Or does it go off and send you a new friend to find you?

It'll find you. It just needs time.

Ah, and then comes the question of time, the matter of when.

When you need it most, I think.

But never when WE think we need it most.

Right. Were that the case, I would have never reached the point I have.

And that point is just why this all started.

Something like that, yeah! I hat irony - and yet it dictates the greater part of my life.

So where do we look for answers? For a way to break these cycles that define us? I do say, to the themes of great literature and of classic cinema. Listen to both the art and the artist, for that is why these things are remembered.

Possibly the most intellectual text I've ever received. And the most insightful conversation I've had at USC.

Haha. I actually Lol'd... not sure why. It was good, though. I miss deep conversations.

I miss them, too! That's why we need a Charter Oak reunion. Just to get some of that old feeling back.

Current Location: dorrrm.
Current Mood: thoughtful
Current Music: I Am Understood-Relient K

OMGGG!!!

I stared at Natalie Portman for about an hour and a half. Just stared.
She was saying something about micro-financing and saving the world
with loans, but I SAW HER! FOR A LONG TIME! AHHH!

Except she says "Uhhh" and "Ummm" a lot for a Harvard graduate.




And now it's time for Stanford to lose. Today is confidence-booster day.

Current Location: beddd.
Current Mood: bouncy
Current Music: "Mess To Be Made"-The Format